Mansion

{name: Chorus} Am Insidious is blind inception F What's reality with all these questions? Dm F Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Am Broken legs but I chase perfection F These walls are my blank expression Dm My mind is a home I'm trapped in F And it's lonely inside this mansion {name:_Instrumental}_ Am F Am Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics F They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors Am F Written all over the floors, all over the chairs G And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs Am That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release F And let out the version of NF you don't want to see Dm I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed F G You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me G Am Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in F That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it Dm And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em F G But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em Am I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around F Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground F#m F Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now G So now this memory for some reason just won't come down Am F You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried Dm F Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind G Am But I'm a keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside Repeat chorus: Verse : 2 - NF: Am Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain F See my problem is I don't fix things Dm I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happen F Say I wish I could change. Are you confused? Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean Am This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems F The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave Dm I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things F F#m But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep Dm I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls F Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom Dm F And one of the first things I wrote was I was shot with a call G But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song Am F And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands G Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans Am F And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die Dm Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind F G The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time? repeat chorus: Verse 3 - NF: Am F#m So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years F I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there Dm Cause if I do, there's a chance F That they might disappear and not come back G Am And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside So I just leave my doors locked F You might get other doors to open up but this doors not Dm Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me F G And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me I'm barricaded inside Am So stop watching F I'm not coming to the door So stop knocking, stop knocking Am I'm trapped here F God keep saying I'm not locked in I chose this G I am lost in my own conscious C F I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em Am F I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there G But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here Am Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in F Maybe that's the problem Cause I've been dealing with this ever since Dm F I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did G He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in Am Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win F C Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can Dm Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors F Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore {name:_Instrumental}_ Am F Dm F Am F Dm Am F It's lonely Dm Inside this mansion